Friday 6 November, 2009

Loneliness is boon as well as curse.


Some days back , I was gestured by few people “I have not seen you so much happy before.” That very comment made me sad for the rest of day. Was I really happy or those people are really sad and found me less sadder , so profiled me as One Happy IT professional from the whole sucking depressed lot. (sadder is that really a word.. will check :) ).

On sleep deprived nights, could have sat down scribbled my emotions and thought but that never happened , guess so much chambers opened in mind difficult to close all and let the desired one open.

Since two weeks I’m all by myself in a 2 bhk (roomie gone home), friends come friends go, some days it so happened that I never uttered a word at home. Remain online and chat. No television for those many days, opened on match day for few minutes but India are always disappointing . They couldn’t even ravage the depleted Australian side on home soil.

I try to concentrate on work when in office and try to relax when I’m home. But failing on both front. Listen to Pink Floyd in the morning , which normal person do that. :) I know lot of people will argue on that.

Even tried to socialize with friends and go out, watched Blue -remain depressed for a very long time, got over Blue at LOR :).

I can’t write more … confused I’m and need a smoke…

Dhuan……..