This piece may appear to readers as a manuscript written by Franz Kafka , but no my writing is not that lucrative and meaningful as his. I’m writing this b’coz it’s been long since I wrote something, reason may be many- Office work had carved out the creative part from me although the percentage was less, late night slogging , waking up late in the morning b’coz of this chilling weather , spending the rest of the time playing HITMAN after returning from office, depressed by the New Year celebration ,o oh –no celebration, planned few things for the eve but all crumbling down at last moment , no one to blame – it was fate which eluded GOA trip from us. SO THOUGHT OF SCRIBBLING LESS OF SENSE AND MORE OF NONSENSE WHICH PRESENTLY HAS A HOLD ON ME.
Planning to go home Feb end, but sill leave not applied , tickets not booked, delaying it, mapping it to the next day -every day, but that next day never comes- god knows why? I know the result of it, will book the tickets the day when the price will be very high.. that’s how I am.. and then crib over it. Need to change Work-Place but not able to study , so that’s also on a hold, wake up in the morning fondled whole night by the dreams, which gives me hope and after opening my eyes I brutally kill those hopes with my own monstrous hand. I wanted to buy a car, everything was planned but that’s also put on hold b’coz of some vicarious reasons.
Idle time, I’m all lost in contemplations – happy ones though, thinking of having this –that and off course if I had that also then it would make my life wonderful, planning of doing this for career perspective, doing that for health perspective, planning of doing something which would end my long season of sleeping wid books and waking up alone in the morning. Today is my Result day – although I know my stand before hand but still hope is there, that the people may do some mishap n I may get good result—Height of optimism. I’m nervous too, don’t know why.. probably after 2 long years , I would get judged on all India basis.
Enough of it—I guess otherwise this will turn into loads of crap :-), and I’m hungry too so going for lunch, can’t ask my friends to wait for a little more time.
Happy New Year to everyone. Hope this year everyone gets their dreams fulfilled even not all of it but at least some part .
GBU!!!!
