The Gap…..

Yeah!!Yeah!!! It’s been a while, in fact a year passed :-). When I looked at the post date of my last scribble it was almost 5 months. My first story was also abandoned in its culmination. Reasons are many , some of the reason could be considered for my unavailability and some could be just ignored as they are meaningless and not even worth talking about. My excuse for THE GAP could be said as “My life subjected to sporadic meaningful/meaningless events” . Meaningful?????? Aye…everything in my life is not meaningless , come on!!! I have something meaningful happening also, don’t believe me?? Well it would be better if I support it with some facts. Meaning…like…hmmm..like..yeh let me think…oh it really need a brain storming session. Forget it!!!! I’ll put it when I recall something , actually there are so many meaningful things happening that’s it difficult to remember them.
I know my pretension would be hard to digest but anyways HAPPY NEW YEAR to everyone and yes I have completed the story(job done).

Past few months were profuse work , I know it’s hard to digest in IT industry but it was .Working on new release fixing bugs of previous release, giving everything to meet the deadline, finally completing it on time , so much effort put in on same salary- yes my appraisal is due for past few months and no sign of getting one in future. So slogging without hike, my statement “Main Sirf paise ke liye kaam karta hun” underwent a complete change to “Main ab sirf job bachane ke liye kaam karta hun”.

Ya, the market scenario is pathetic , on bench people getting fired , all company reducing their work strength, increasing the working hours, stopping the hikes, cutting the present salary by some percentage. The highlighting part of the Market down was the Lehmann debacle, when that happened every one panicked , rumors started floating about various other banks going bankrupt and financial consulting firms closing down. The government pitched in to soothe the people , telling India’s economy is safe and all the banks are in better situation. When people started easing out and breathing in relief- SATYAM crashed and left a black mark on India’s IT industry. There’s panic everywhere in the IT circle , no one is certain of what’s going to happen , no marriage proposal for Software Engineer, parents looking for other options for their girls. Well I’m concerned about this more because I’m planning to get married (I’m one selfish guy, always cribbing…forget it ). Now marriage can be put in the meaningful bucket. What say??? :-)

Above all there are these group of peoples making our life more miserable , bombing different parts of India , killing innocent people . The Mumbai incident was the worst among all , It was horrifying and tragic. Where the hell has our security gone, they came in from anywhere got in anywhere and killed anyone. Salute to the brave Indian army for rescuing us, the whole nation cried and moaned while they stood tall and assured us that we are still safe. The news channels fought for the coverage while the uniform people fought, they even gave it a new name 26/11. Come on people at least this was not to be compared with Videsh. The country and the citizen are indebted to all those who cooperated in the mission and to all those heroes who lost their lives. The dead count may not be huge but the faith and pride loss is huge.

Here I’m back again after few more days, went on a break again, this new release and work is driving me nuts, it’s only because of recession that I’m hanging otherwise mail and god knows what after that. I just keep on cribbing, all because of my dreams they leave me breathless.

Any ways coming back to complete this post , thanks to one heck of a sporty weekend and my courage to ignore some work on weekends :-). But yeah I was tired needed a break , and it couldn’t get better than watching the 2 best tennis player fight it out for another Grand Slam. Nadal has really gone inside the head of Roger. He had to play him mentally as well as physically. Nadal eluding Roger again to equal Pete. Well, I think this French open may have something for Roger fans, for me I just sit and enjoy their display of skill, neutral I’m.
Aussie dethroned by SA and they lost 2day also :) India still winning , Messi still scoring , EPL getting real exciting ,these are the things which keeps me going.
Yes music and movies too. Movies have been real disaster and waste of money, come on it’s recession every penny may count :-). All the movies I watched in last few months have given me big time headache. So I have gone selective now, waiting for DEV D ,presently the only movie in my list for coming months.

The music of DEV D is awesome, when I first heard , I thought it was a typical T-Series collection ‘HITS Of 2008’ which they release at the end of every year. A mix bag, EA(emosonal attyachaar), EA rock version, Nayan Tarse, Mahi Mennu and Pardesi tracks are exceptional, when I started repeating the album I started liking other songs, presently Saali Khushi and Paayaliya are my personal favs.
Movies were so bad that I switched on to American serials, earnestly speaking Prison Break and Heroes are must watch. Do watch it, torrents are easily available and have a fantastic seeding.

I completely forgot, now one could make out that I really need a break, the work has completely wiped out the best days of my life, which I lived in last few months. I had Goa trips, trip(s) --oh yes not once , in two months two times. :-)

Time to wrap up, mail checking time..ya ya official mails and there’s football also -Liverpool VS Chelsea.
Got to gather myself also, get mentally prepared na na not for the match , it’s for Monday. I hate MONDAY.
One more thing, for Rock Fans Iron Maiden is on , 15th Feb Bangalore , tickets available at DNA website. That would be one rocking night, missed the first time, this time ..will ROCK :-)
Enjoy the new year and this season "Try Not Falling In love". :-)

Eternal Love(VI) - The Culmination

Almost a week past in hospital , Sonal health deteriorating day after day, Rohan getting restless, arguing with the doctors everyday and each day getting the same reply “It’s too late, we are helpless”. Controlling the tears , keeping his emotions intact, trying to make Sonal smile all the time. Friends started visiting in the morning before going to office, showing their empathy , saying words of encouragement, suggesting different doctors and hospital , where Sonal’s case could have handled properly. Sonal was happy to see them just because they bring smile on Rohan face otherwise her eyes were always longing for particular faces.
Rohan was having breakfast on Sonal insistence as he skipped the night meal.

Sonal: Did you call them?
Rohan: Yes.
Sonal: then……
Rohan: Then what?
Sonal: Are they coming?
Rohan: Yes , they told they will book the tickets and will come as soon as possible.
Sonal: Lie, you can’t even lie properly.
Rohan: No baba , I’m telling the truth, believe me…
Sonal: Shut up!!
Rohan: If you already know the truth then why you want to hear it from me?.
And he started weeping like a baby. Sonal trying to console but can’t even move her hands to wipe out his tears because of the pierced needles.
Sonal: Please don’t cry and tell me what they said, I’m ready to hear anything .
Rohan: In heavy and sobbing voice --they told “Their daughter died the day when she ran away with you, now they least care, whether she is dying or she is already dead.” They even told that I’m responsible for whatever has happened to you.
Sonal: How can they talk to you like that, now I also don’t want to see them.

To their respite the doctor came, he told Rohan to come out. Now Rohan new that the time has come for the final verdict , he was trying to be strong , following the doctor out of the room.
Doctor: Rohan, Call everyone from the family whom she wants to meet, because the days may very soon get converted to hours. Be strong , we really tried hard but the test reports have come , almost all the internal organs have stopped functioning , the body is filled with water.

Rohan: How many days?
Doctor: 24 hours or at max 10 more hours.
Rohan: What? Can I take her home?
Doctor: No!! better keep her here only, she won’t be able to move at all.

Patting on Rohan’s back the doctor left. Rohan was shattered , he didn’t know what to do although he knew this hour will come. He called up his friends but couldn’t tell them anything just hung up hearing the voice from other end. He was preparing himself for this, but when the hour came everything was like a black hole, he felt as if he was dying. Finally he called up his mom but couldn’t tell her also , just cried on the call, his mom unaware of anything thought that his this state was because of Sonal. She started cursing her, blaming her for his condition, thrashing her by her words right and left and every curse statement was ending up with “I told you not to marry her, now see what she has done”. Rohan realizing the irony and accepting that his present state was surely because of Sonal but not how his mom was reasoning , his mom would never know how much he loved her.
Rohan: MOM!! It’s ok, stop cursing her, I’m hanging up. I’ll be all right, don’t worry.


He hung up the phone, rubbed his cheeks and eyes, went inside the room. Thinking why he called her up but then realized instead of her cursing Sonal, he stopped crying - that’s the effect of mom. Sonal eyes were fixed at the door from the time he went out. The moment he stepped in she started yelling at him with her very feeble and rushy voice.


Sonal: What the hell? What were you doing outside for so long? What the doctor said?
Rohan: Nothing much, he told he need to put in some more needles in your body to remove the water.
Sonal: What the f***? You lying again, how many days?
Rohan: Shut up n relax, not so soon.


They started their normal chit chats, Rohan trying to make her smile every time, reminding her of their first night after marriage , they were counting the money and packing to move out of Delhi rather than doing the stuff which every married couples do the very first night after marriage. At this Sonal started laughing. The doctor and nurses came inside willing to inject at 2 more places to remove water, she was telling them she didn’t want it but the doctor were insisting , as it will help her talk and breathe otherwise the water will block speech system and the breathing system too. Typical doctors they have their ways of making things done. Listening to this Sonal surrendered.


Time was running fast it was Friday afternoon, she was fading , she was nearing the dark clouds, she even started showing signs, not able to talk that fluently, sometimes having breathing problems. The conditions started getting worse and she started facing serious breathing problems, to help her breathe the doctor put a mask on her mouth. Tears were rolling continuously from Rohan’s eyes, her eyes were almost closed , she had her head directed where Rohan was standing. Looking at him with those half closed eyes. Rohan called up few of his friends asking them to come as soon as possible. She was constantly looking at her from few minutes. Suddenly she opened her eyes a little wider and started moving her hands calling Rohan.
Rohan came closer and understood that she wanted to remove the mask, he asked the nurse and she removed it.


Sonal: Rohan, ask the doctors to remove everything from my body please, I’m feeling very uncomfortable.
Looking at her eyes Rohan knew , he asked the nurses to do so, but the nurses were afraid, so they called the doctor.
Rohan: Sir please remove everything , my Sonal is feeling uncomfortable, please sir do it fast , she can’t bear any more pain --release her.
The doctor nodded to the nurse and she removed all the tubes.
Sonal: Embrace me, I want to die in your arms, always close to you.
Rohan: Nothing will happen , you will always be with me.
Sonal: Rohan!! I don’t want to die, I don’t want to leave you, I love you………………………
Rohan: You are not leaving me at any cost, I also love you …..Sonal …Sonal…Sonal…..


She had already left him and his crying was louder than before and he was shouting “Don’t leave me , what will I do without…Please..oh god……please ”. She was gone , he held her in the same position for some time, realizing nothing is coming back he laid her properly on bed ,removing his arms from her, kissed her on the lips, closed her eyes and retraced his steps backwards with his eyes still glued at her smiling face…………