Eternal Love (V)- The Proposal

It was hardly 3 days, she had gone and Rohan started counting the days, he was getting restless as if devoid of something which was the essence of his life. Two more days passed, she didn’t call, he was very much annoyed and pissed off. Started smoking also, as people say cig makes time fly faster. Two more days passed and now he was going into the darkness of sadness. Finally she called up one night, it was the 5th day.

Sonal: Sorry…

Before she could say anything Rohan started hurling all the slang at her – on top of his voice, hearing this she started laughing and said “I love you”. That acted as a pacifier for him, he calmed down then she explained him the problems she had, and how difficult it was to call him.

Rohan: Sonal plz come back, I don’t know what’s happening but I can’t refrain from you now.
Sonal: Idiot, stop this, it’s hard for me also. 10 days more baby. I also miss you.


Don’t know what acted as a catalyst 10 days or the miss you, but Rohan broke down and started sobbing, not loud but enough for Sonal also to break into tears.

Sonal: Baby, don’t do this, It’s not easy for me also, ok will call you later, DAD is coming. Bye!! Take care, luv u.
Rohan: wait wait…


She hung up. That was enough for his cheeks getting completely wet. Two more days passed and Sonal didn’t call. After this incident Rohan took leave from office also, he didn’t feel like going anywhere just waiting for her phone. He was laying on the bed playing with the phone, received some tap on the door, dragged his extra heavy body and opened the door.

Rohan: You…
Sonal: Yes it’s me Sonal Muteja and I guess I’m in the right house and you are Rohan Bakshi.
Rohan: What?
Sonal: Nice way to greet, was expecting some one else or is any one there in the room with you.
Rohan: No no, just surprised to see you as you were coming after 10 days.
Sonal: Gr8, you only called me and now when I’m here you are looking all amazed and startle as if you never wanted me here, everything in phone was just fake. Better I’ll leave.
Rohan: Shut up.

He hugged her tightly, they lay on the bed, Sonal constantly teasing Rohan for that crying episode and living like a Devdas after she left. Rohan was not feeling bad at all, he was simply loving it, as he got what he wanted. Some chemical changes has already started happening with in him and suddenly the questioned popped out.


Rohan: Will you marry me?
Sonal: Shut up and listen how I got here? Dad saw me crying after I hung up the phone, he asked me the reason and I told her that one of my friend met with an accident and I had to leave as she is very serious.
Rohan: Marry me!!
Sonal: Lucky me na, my excuses work everytime.
Rohan: Please Marry me!

Sonal was trying to ignore it but Rohan was unstoppable, she was already getting emotional, with touch of water in the eyes. Rohan jumped out from the bed on to the floor, his eyes searching Sonal’s eyes in all the tears.

This time he said it loud.


Sonal: Yes idiot, now come inside, and close the door.

Then Rohan realized that he got so carried away by his thought that he said those words now also. He closed the door and came inside.

Sonal: Whom were you proposing?
Rohan: Nothing yaar, I was just remembering the day when I proposed you for marriage.
Sonal: Oh, I was a big idiot to say ‘YES’ and see now, what you have done to me?
Rohan: What have I done?
Sonal: Nothing baba, don’t get senti n all, was just bugging you. I thought that you were planning to propose to that sexy nurse, once I’m gone.
Rohan: Shut up! You are not going anywhere, time for the medicine.
Sonal: Ok, Don’t marry that nurse but at least marry some one after my death. I don’t want you to remain alone once I’m gone.
Rohan: Take the medicine; you are not going to die so soon, I’m not that lucky.
Sonal: Ok, Mr Not so lucky, don’t marry but at least take me out of this Hospital, Staying here is reducing my days on earth. I wish to meet my end sooner, if you keep me here for long.

Rohan was speechless, he could not say anything just looked at her eyes, Sonal could clearly see her number of days left and Rohan could easily make out from her face and eyes that Sonal’s this wish would be true very soon.

to be contd....

Eternal Love (IV)- Marriage:The Cataclysm

The Date:

Laying down with its part in different direction; the master to whom he was so loyal treated him in the most unexpected way and that too for a girl whom Rohan had met only once. That’s not what he deserved ,he never complained even at the long messaging sessions at night and now what he got -”Laying on the floor since 1 hr ” and Rohan sitting on one side of the room looking at him with anguish.

He got up assembled all the pieces and switched it on, it was working fine. The cosmetic part of the phone took a beating but the internal was perfect. He said “that’s my Nokia 2200”. When the phone was up, he got loads of message, all from Sonal, before he could read them - she called. He waited for few rings and then picked.

Sonal: Hello! You are a big idiot, could not understand that I was bugging you.
Rohan: Hi, I thought so, that’s why to trouble you I switched off my phone. Now we are even.
Sonal: Even !! my foot, why you took so long to call, 2 days man – What were you doing? Settling accounts with other girls before bouncing on me?
Rohan: Let’s not get into this - tell me what are you doing now? Are you free?
Sonal: Not that free but tell me ..
Rohan: Meet me at Barista today at 5.

Then he went on to tell her the location, with a little bit of girl’s nagging habit - yes..no..yes.. he convinced her. It was lunch time and he had to meet a girl for lunch. He came back from lunch and it was already 3 p.m. Still have time for the evening date, so he decided of taking a nap. After sometime, his cell phone started making noise, the message was from Sonal. Where are you? I’m already there. What ??? Then he looked at the watch it was 5. Shit, he slept for 2 hours and now he is late.

He woke up, removed his clothes, hurled the water in the bucket over himself then had a DEO bath, dressed up and was ready in 5 minutes. All along the drive to Barista, he was cursing the chicken tanddori and rice. Finally he reached there 1 hr late to find out that he was early as he couldn’t find her. Text her immediately: Where are you? I’m there. Got the reply : Good, then place this order for me “Espresso Italiano” with sugar free, I’ll be there in 10 minutes.

He started laughing, took a table and ordered the desired coffee.

She came, full make up, long ear rings with perfect white top, revealing her cleavage. He thought she looked better in the rain, with all her make up washed out.

Sonal: Have you ordered?
Rohan: Yes, girls are strange he thought, no apologies not even a Hi.
By the time her chit chat started, coffee came to give his ear some respite. As soon as she completed the coffee, she asked for the bill which he paid.
Sonal: Time to go, thanks for the coffee.
Rohan: So early, that was the few words he said after along time, otherwise she never gave him a chance to utter.
Sonal: Yup, coffee is over so no point in sitting and above all you don’t speak much, it’s me doing all the talking.
Rohan: You never allowed me to speak.
Sonal: Oh oh, is it , I thought that you were enjoying the view and never bother to talk, chalo next time you do the talking and I’ll listen.
Rohan: What view?
Sonal: Aah, .. come on . you have bike na?
Rohan: Yes.
Sonal: good drop me to PVR, I have a movie to catch at 7.30.
Rohan: gr8.

He took her to PVR saket and was about to say bye, when she said “park the bike and come to the entrance, I have got 2 tickets for SpiderMan”. He was shocked but couldn’t do anything. They watched the movie and he dropped her home after the movie.

Few more dates, movies and some lips act episodes in the theatre, sometimes even the goodbye kiss when he drops her home, now he was comfortable with her and was able to do much of talking also. She had now become his daily routine, he thought that he had given Sonal the maximum time among all the girls and never felt like sleeping with her. That’s was so unlikely of him, sometimes he thinks that he had killed the original Rohan or probably he was in some kind of hypnotic fascination entrusted by her. Whatever it was he simply loved her company.


The Unexpected:

Hours, days, months passed and she had now become the necessity, their frequent meet-ups took a jitter because of her 12th board exams that was the time when he realized -he loved her. The only time he could meet her was after the exams before the cab picks her up. To spend more time with her he would insist her of letting him drop her. The Exam took almost a month to finish and during that month he had only met her few times. He was longing for the exams to end and finally the day came. He was very exited that day, had made the preparation also, booked the movie tickets as she is very fond of movie, booked the table for dinner on the busiest restaurant. Everything was set even Sonal had taken permission from home–her typical excuse worked this time too. She came out from the school premises and demanded Rohan to take her to his place, so that she could change. He opened the door, as soon as they got in, she kissed him, Rohan was shocked and was not able to act accordingly , seeing this she withdrew her lips from his.


Sonal: I love you.
Rohan: What?
Sonal: Again this “what”, I’m telling I love you, I don’t know why, may be because you are smart, care for me……..
Her tone got heavy and she was not able to the utter the words properly, that was the signal for him to take over from there, he brought her close and hugged her.

Rohan: I love you too, thought of saying this to you long time before but was never able to.

She started smiling and kissed her, this time he was ready, after some time he pushed her and said “ Change , we have a movie to catch”. She stood there staring at him as if deprived of something and so abstruse that she gave an imperceptible nod and turned back, the omen clearly reflected that it’s time now and there was no escaping, he hold her by the hand, picked her up, kissed her and dropped her on the bed.


Sonal: Come in.
Rohan: Oh you are awake? I was just closing the windows.
Sonal: There are no windows in the balcony, get in other wise you will fall sick and close the door also, I’m feeling cold.
Rohan: Yup, you try to get some sleep, I’ll smoke and come.

As he lit the cigarette, he remembers of the evening he had his first drag along with her. After the first time, it was no big deal, she was lying next to him, wrapped in the bed sheet, suddenly she got up and started looking for match box, once she found it, she opened her purse and pulled out a small packet. She slid in to the bed, by this time he was watching all the episodes never dared to question her, because her body language had the sign of “NO OBJECTION”. She un-wrapped the cover, it was a cig packet. It came out of his mouth “What”.

Sonal: It’s said that after sex, smoking gives you a different kind of pleasure.
Rohan: What? Who told u?
Sonal: I read it, and stop with your “whats” and lit one, we will smoke.
He had smoked few drags before, during his night shifts so he knew a bit about smoking. He lit it up, took a drag, she was staring at his face, with eyes wide open.

Sonal: How do u feel, give me I’ll also try, teach me.
Rohan: No no, It’s not good.
Sonal: Shut up, I got it, I’ll try, tell me how to do it.

He explained her how to take, she took it and started coughing, eyes filled with water, nose all red. He tried to take the cig from her but she was not ready to let it go, One more go, she yelled at him with rash voice. One, two, three drags and now she was master.

Sonal: Idiots, these survey guys are big idiots, taste awful.

She threw the cig out of the window and looked for water and Rohan started laughing.

Sonal: Come get up, we will go to the ice cream parlour or else I’ll throw in sometime.

She was having the ice cream at full speed and he was still laughing.

Sonal: Shut up or else I’ll kill you.
Rohan: Ok ok. So when are you going for your cousin marriage?
Sonal: How many times I have told this Friday and yes I’ll be coming back in 15 days.
Rohan: 15 days, what will I do, your mobile will work there na?
Sonal: No my mobile will not work, I’ll call you everyday at night, now stop being a baby, I’m your GF not your wife.


to be contd...

Rock On- Rocks.

Well, compelled to post the review amidst my “love story-Eternal Love”, just because can’t resist to wait for my story to conclude and the request for the review also made me do so. This post may be not well written as I’m writing a review after a long time and probably won’t be able to do complete justice.

Rock On – Live the Dreams.
The movie is about fulfilling the dreams you have so long lived with. It clearly reflects never to compromise in life rather keep on Rocking. With compromise you grow older and disgusted but when you start striving for your dreams age seems to be no barrier for you. This is the story about a music band group “MAGIK”, the way the word is spelled gives you a picture that it’s different, the band, the music they compose, the lyrics , the bondage they have, the dreams they strive for. The movie is about friendship, relationships, compromises, dreams.

The Characters:

Four friends form a band “Magik” and dream to make it big. Aditiya (Farhan Akhtar ) the lead singer and the poet of the band is ready to make any compromise to see the band making a mark on the global level , he dreams of “Having a bus named on the Band and they always move ahead on their journey never look back” and to fulfill this he is ready to compromise with the music also. Joe (Arjun Rampal), the stud, the lead guitarist of the band, is not ready to compromise their music at any stake. He believes in creating music that pleases everyone rather than creating music to please and suit others. KD(Purab Kohli) aka killer drummer is just concerned with pleasing girls , never dreams or believe in any idealism. Rob (Luke Kenney) just wants the band to be together and compose.

Each and every character is perfectly portrayed, be it their competitor band (forgot the name of the band) but ya remember their song “Zehriley” or the music company owner and the director of their first album-everyone’s role is well crafted. Other than the four main players the movie also highlights the two females- Sakshi (Prachi Desai) who plays Aditya’s wife and Shahana Goswami who plays Arjun’s wife. They both are different characters - Sakshi tries to unite the band so that his hubby (Farhan) is happy and their relationship improves but Arjun’s wife always tries to keep him away from their friends and the band even though she was with the band from starting.

The Acting:
Three debutants, three marvelous performances each of them need a special appreciation for their part. Farhan perfectly suits in to the role of the lead singer and the perfect hubby role, he display all the emotions with ease, be it when he is a husband or be it when he portrays the lead and most talented/responsible member of the band. Prachi brings grace and freshness in the movie, her role is well crafted and she does full justice to it. Arjun Rampal – he is the man, Long hair, classy mustache, perfect body language as a lead guitarist – his entry in the climax of the movie just speak of his power packed display. Guitar in the hand, hair swaying, stern look on the face, rock star kind of body movement all are just awesome. The way he handles the character of a loser and a hero in the eyes of his son are all superbly done. Shahana – she is just superb, she perfectly carries the irritation and disappointment in her role with ease. The complex character is very perfectly portrayed by her, she could well turn out be the director’s actor. Purab – his comic timing are just excellent, he is improving with every movie. He brings the light moments on the tense and sentimental part of the movie. Luke is well poised and energetic in his role as the man with a big heart.

The Music:
Shankar-Eshan-loy gives another master piece and a new singer in Farhan Akhtar to the industry. All the numbers are catchy and different, some you will like the first time you hear it and some you will like after you watch the movies. However I felt that the music could have been much better, but then I realized I could not compare it with LedZ, Metallica or any other big names just because the name of the movie has Rock word in it. The lyrics are funny and difficult to hum but still they flow well with the music and Farhan voice. All the songs are perfectly picturized, giving them a Rock show feel. The guitar work in all the songs are rocking, perfectly complimented by the drums and Farhan voice gives it a perfect blend.

The Direction, Screenplay and Editing:
Abhishek Kapoor- well his first venture was a disaster [Arayan] can’t say about it much as I have not watched it. In this movie he has done his home work though, one will simply love the style the movie is narrated and the flash backs put in the perfect part of the movie. The movie start’s with a stage rock performance on the road side of Mumbai with people moving in the background and the typical Mumbai traffic- a classy act of direction. A perfect execution of the most difficult movie according to me because rock is still considered insidious in India, that’s why the question comes “Are the Indian audience ready for ROCK ON”? All the emotional and sentimental scenes are effectively handled not allowing the actors to overreact. A well edited movie, it keeps the story intact and never allows the audience to get into boredom. Some of the Screenplays are taken straight from the bible. The confrontation between Aditya and Sakshi on their marriage life, the part at the climax when Aditya reveals that Joe is not coming and the outburst of KD on that, even the chemistry of typical hubby(Arjun) and wife(Shahana) are flawless. A master piece in short.

The Flaw:
There are few I would say- they may not be taken as flaw in other’s books, but I feel the break up of the band was not properly build up. It could have been more audience hitting, even their reunion was also not that great. I felt that because to break best of friends you need some substantial reason normal ego probs won’t do and when long separated friends reunite than it has to be grand. Except the title song "Rock On" other lyrics could have been made more hum-able, so that it could have appealed to the masses-who loves humming the bollywood songs. This could have brought all kind of viewers to the theatres, but now it’s a metro audience movie.

Few things I have not talked about, which you will love when you see the movie. The climax of the movie is the stage performance for 20 minutes, it’s perfect and it was shot in one go I guess - a perfect ending.

A must watch for all viewers, don’t go on the title of the movie, even the non Rock lovers would enjoy the movie. I being a true worshiper of rock music simply loved it, give me a man with guitar in his hand with long hairs playing high nodes with drums in the background- I could watch it for infinite hours.

Have a Rock On – go watch it.

Eternal Love (III)- The Rain

The thunders and the loud roars of the cloud woke him up. Sonal was fast sleep and the windows were trying desperately to hamper her sleep. He unfolds himself from her hold, got out of the blanket and extended it to her neck. Gazed at her face, she looks even more beautiful to him. It always kind of happens to Rohan every time Sonal looks him prettier than before. It’s just like the Bollywood actor “with age their charisma grows”. The windows and the doors where making too much of noise, so he got up from the bed with his eyes still glued to her face. Closed the windows and then walked towards the balcony.

Pune is completely different during rains, the only thing she liked about the city. Otherwise Sonal still misses Delhi; she loved every thing about Delhi and was very depressed when they decided to move here. It was still drizzling and the wind was strong, Rohan went out in the balcony just to feel what she liked so much about the rain. The first drop of water on his body took him 2 years back from then where he was forced to get wet in the rain by Sonal.

………………………………….turning the pages

Rohan was standing outside the Disco waiting for the rain to stop, thinking it was an awful night for him. First wasting hours on that gal and result no name, no phone number and above all this rain. Even the gal with whom he wasted so much of time was not his target, desperation creeps into him. Shivering because of the wind and the thought of going back fully drenched in rain- pneumonia, fever, cold, body aches , the very thought of these made him sick. Suddenly the process was blocked by a girl voice from back - Hi. He turned back to find the same gal.

Rohan: ehhh, not you again.
Sonal: Left early and still standing here.
Rohan: Waiting for the rain to stop.
Sonal: I wish, it never stops, I love rain.
Rohan: I hate rain.
Sonal: So were you able to figure out my name.
Rohan: Not interested.
Sonal: In what my name or me or my body which you have scanned many a time.
Rohan figured it out that another hour will go just like this and nothing will come out of it, so it’s better to accept the defeat and let her win. She would be happy and will let him go. Sonal!!
Rohan: What?
Sonal: My name…idiot.
Rohan: He tried to conceal his smile. Rohan
Sonal: So Rohan, you look cool when smiling and look cute when trying to hide one.
Rohan: He started laughing.
Sonal: That too much of… now you look roudy.
Rohan: Controlling his laughter, Shut Up.
By that time Rohan had figured out that this girl is master in handling boys, he knows when to prick them and when to soothe them, a complete bitch- plays with the guy’s emotions, drag him to edge, kick him and rest his history. There must be something in a gal to defy all his tricks.

Sonal: So now what?
Rohan: Means??
Sonal: You don’t want my number.
Rohan: Off course I want.
Sonal: Then walk me to the auto stand and she came out amidst the road.
Rohan: No way… I’m going that path, not at all falling for this.
By the time she had already started walking, her friends were little ahead than her. So she started running and swaying in the rain enjoying every bit and probably not letting any rain drops hits the ground without touching her body.
Completely soaked in rain, she was calling for him; it was then that Rohan realized that not only she has a good body and sexy looks; there’s also has a child within her. Bad Idea he thought but he ran towards her, leaving himself totally at the mercy of rain, every drop was like 100 watt electricity. She laughed looking at him, he feels like the biggest idiot in the world, standing in front of her with all humbleness and she making a mock of him. She grabbed his hand and brushed his hair, this was much stronger shot than the rain drops, It was not the first time that a person from opposite sex touched him, but it was different. He thought probably it may be the rain. The auto stand was not that far, it was 1 km from the disco. He was looking at her while she was babbling non-stop, half way through he already knew everything about her, the likes, dislikes and all the blah blah.. but what his ears wanted to hear was not coming out of her mouth- the number. He surely loves the way she talks, making different expressions with different topics, his eyes were glued to her lips and eyes, even the rain drops also loved it, not ready to leave the lips until the next drop forces, as if every drop wanted to kiss her.

Sonal: hellooo…
Rohan: yes yes.
Sonal: Stop staring and tell me something about yourself.
He hated this part, lucky for him they reached the auto stand, her friends were already waiting for her. He looked at her and she said Thanks with a lower voice, then went and sat in the auto.
Now he looked a complete idiot- he tried to ask her, where the fuck is your number? But something stopped, he stood there with his hand in the air and head down watching the water stream flowing under him, and asking him the same question which he himself was asking – Idiot what are you doing here? Move out of the way.

Idiot!! Now everyone was calling him that, he raised his head to figure out who, It was Sonal.
Sonal: Idiot – take my number otherwise how would you tell me about yourself.
Rohan: oh yes, I completely forgot.
Sonal: is it??

He realized that he wasn’t a complete IDIOT.
After exchanging the numbers she went back to the auto, Now both his head and hand were up and he was waving at her, then suddenly the auto stopped and she came running into him, kissed him on the lips and then started running towards the auto, shouting “This was for giving company in the rain”.
Now he realized that he was not at all an IDIOT and started feeling the rain, he took another auto for his room. Her images still lingered in his eyes and her voice echoed in his ears. “ Is this love “ … na na na.. He thought that once he dates her he will try celebrating it in a diff way not the usual bike…….
Bike!! He shouted at the top of his voice and the auto wala said no bike only auto.

Rohan: Shut up and take me to the stand from where you picked me, there is a disco near that stand take me there.
In this whole scene he completely forgets that he has a bike which may be now laying in the disco stand, waiting for his master. What an idiot , he gave the auto wala the fair and ran into the stand and was happy to see his bike still there . He touched it, removed the water from the seat and then started it.

Now , “Is this love” idiot “this is loss of memory go see a doctor’. Then he drove back home.

Few days past he was still in the dilemma “Call Don’t Call”, he was dawdling with this from last 2 days. Sometimes when he picks up to call, the thought of her not calling first stops him. He was not able to sleep after that rainy night not because of her but fever, cold and when temp was low her thought's too . One fine morning he picks up and dialed her up as he cannot see himself in this distress any further.

Rohan: Hello, how are you?
Sonal: Hi, I’m fine! Who are u?
Taken aback she doesn’t have my number stored, but she stored -in front of me that night, she deleted it as I was late in calling, or she never stored it.

Sonal: Hello…
Rohan: Hey It’s Rohan, Rohan Bakshi
Sonal: Which Rohan, I don’t know any one by that name. Sorry Wrong number.
Rohan: I met you in Dis……
She hung up, it took some time for Rohan to realize what happened and when he realized that, his Nokia 2200 was flying in the air to meet its inevitable – The Wall.

to be contd........

Eternal Love (II)- The Encounter

Almost 2 years after the disco night….
It was raining heavily since last 2 days, the windows and the doors were left open as Sonal loved the touch of cold moisten wind during the rains on her body. She certainly loves the rain and he definitely hates the rain. He couldn’t even hear the commentary properly because of the rain drops hitting the balcony and the winds splashing the window’s panes. Even when he tries to concentrate a bit more the clouds ruin it, making sounds even deaf can hear. He was totally pissed of and she was enjoying the rain lying next to him.

Sonal: Do you love me?
Rohan: What?
Sonal: Perfect answer you won a date with Bipasha.
There goes a slap on the back not forceful but certainly enough to divert Rohan’s attention from the football match going on the TV.

Sonal: I’m lying almost half naked next to you and you are seeing the guys running all around in shorts. Your sexual feelings are alright na or something happening inside you.?
Rohan: no no…Sorry

Holding her hand and bringing close to his lips he told ‘off course I love you’.

Sonal: Then what so interesting on TV?
Rohan: It was just that Args are loosing.. oh ok forget it. Tell.
Sonal: What can you do for me?
Rohan: Oh you want to play Bollywood – Bollywood? “Jaan de sakta hun”.
Sonal: Crap ..That I can take anytime, you are at my mercy and she extended her head and kissed him on the cheeks.
Rohan: oh oh.. “Bribe”.. tell?
She started smiling, and said that she wanted to date Tom Cruise.

Rohan: What?
Sonal: Again wot?? You don’t remember?
Rohan: I do remember your dream of dating the smartest guy in the world ?
Sonal: Yes correct, After all these years I have decided that lucky guy would be ‘Tom Cruise’, although he had some tough competition from Jackie Chan.
Rohan: Jackie.. Jackie Dada.. ha ha ha ha…
Sonal: Shut up. So please do something, I want to date him.
Rohan: Yup, one of my frnd has his number , I’ll call him and will arrange a matin…meeting. Trying to control his laughter.
Sonal: Good, I must start preparing for the date from now only. The dresses, the makeup, the jokes, the cond…
Rohan broke into laughter, and after few beating and slang’s by Sonal he calmed down.

Rohan: Ok . Do you remember the Disco night when we first met?
Sonal: Off course, who can forget the worst day of my life, which ruined everything.
Rohan: Worst day of your life?? Worst day of my life, I left so many girls just for you.
Sonal: Hmm!! Who is stopping you? Go your are free.
Her eyes moisten, before she starts crying, Rohan kissed her on the lips passionately, and she threw his head away saying- “enough enough” and started smiling.

Rohan: I love you.
Sonal: I know, so what were you saying about that night?
Rohan: Actually, at that night I was trying to coax one of your friends.
Sonal: Oh gr8, and now you’re telling me. Who was she? Ritu, Geeta, Rashmi, Sheetal
Rohan: Sheetal.
Sonal: Pathetic -your choice is just like you.
Rohan: Jealous!! Okies listen, actually I tried to go through the old funda “Pehle dost and then the friend”. So the net was spread for her, with you as bait but you turned out to be the prey. Never ready to leave the net for other fishes. You ruined that night for me.

This time she was not angry rather they both started laughing

Sonal: Sheetal !!! She is still unmarried and single, you want me to talk to her. Ha ha ha!! Take your time she will always remain single until her father find some one for her. You are one sleazy idiot.
Rohan: Yup I know.
Sonal: Do you really want me talk to her.
Rohan: No no. I love you.
Sonal trying to be a sycophant said Rohan lets trade her for Tom Cruise.

Rohan: You can have Tom Cruise, I don’t need any girl b’coz I have a beautiful, sexy, adorable wife.
Sonal: Even I also have a smart, sweet, loving hubby so I also don’t need Tommy; u can scum that desire of mine.
Rohan: Good.
Sonal: For time being.

They started laughing, the ambiance changed once his eyes met hers, it was love all over them, they kissed and hugged each other, and he lay next to her embracing her tightly, with his eyes dampened.


to be contd......

Eternal Love (I)- The Intro....

50–60-70– 80-90-100 there it goes -it was one of the fewest occasion his Pulsar crossed the 100 mark barrier on the Delhi-Noida high way.“Bakshi slow down” his friend sitting at the back was shouting at the top of his voice but nothing could deter him now, as this was his way of celebrating.

Celebration – yup this was his exotic way of celebrating a unique accomplishment. Well this celebration was not for coming 1^st in class or cracking the prestigious IIT exams or any medical Entrance or any other normal events which triggers any kind of celebration. It was something special – a kind of accomplishment in which lies his vanity -that was dating gals and then pinning them down. The crown ‘Casanova’ was bestowed upon him by his friends and some of his admirers also tagged him as real time SRK. Well this celebration was for another girl falling for his charisma.

Mr Rohan Bakshi was not the same person initially when he landed in Delhi, he did his 10^th and 12^th from a small school in a small town in Chhattisgarh. Typical youth coming to Delhi for coaching so that he may get through any good Engineering college priority being IIT. His friend use to tell him that he landed on wrong side of the country, he should be in Mumbai pursuing a career in Bollywood or modeling rather slogging for engineering. He used to ignore them and some time will burst laughing on their marks. He was talented, a very good singer, a very good story teller, a good mimic, had loads of jokes in his stocks which could please any one in this world.

The first year of his struggle was in vain, he couldn’t crack IIT and because of his confidence, he didn’t even sit for other Exams. He felt bad asking his parents to support him for the second time preparation. This guilt and need for financial assistance brought him to Call centre job. He found everything related with the job very luring and soothing- night job, good money, hot- broad minded gals, minimum qualification for the post and above all he will get time in morning for his classes and studies. This job changed many things for him, his Enng preparation took a sudden break , he started liking gals, all the parties and outing which he had with his colleagues changed his perception towards gals . Now he knows how to handle them and what pleases them, he has become the master in the act of dating gals and then sleeping with them. Nothing in his life now was more important than gals. Before he could realize he has already developed some kind of addiction for girls, he would do anything just to have the company of gal -in short he was the “Ranjith of bollywood “ only difference was that he won’t indulge in any kind of sinful activity, he believed in everything happening with mutual understanding-no force.

All the gals he dated ,with none he was emotionally attached nor did he love anyone. He never used to feel bad or guilty on breaking anyone’s heart; even he used to make marriage promises but in the end it doesn’t even matter. This has now become his life style and he loved every bit of it. Every day a new challenge. new gal , a new style for trapping her. None of his relationship lasted very long nor did it took him much time to date a new girl.

Everything was smooth in his life but somewhere a tornado was approaching him…..

She was a typical Delhi gal, she was in 12^th std but instead of concentrating on her career she dreamed of dating the smartest guy in the whole world, well her dream has no boundaries but facing the reality she decided to narrow it down to Delhi. She's the spoiled brat, use to watch movies-bunking the tuitions. Grabbing extra money from home for extra tuitions and using those money in beauty parlor and buying dresses, spending the time with other gals in the happening places of Delhi like disco, coffee joins and other places where you get the maximum possibility of picking up a hot dude. She used to do all the things which even guys would dare to do at that age …. That's Sonal Muteja.

Seeing the world in altogether different canvas, where everything is multi-dimensional filled with colors which have no meaning in itself but they are there because they need to be there. Never believed in love and hated those gals who believed in ‘Sex after marriage’ or those gals who believed in QSQT and DDLJ. Only thing she liked about DDLJ was Switzerland and SRK style of flirting. Rest all was crap for her. She believes in dumping the guy before he can even think of that. She totally and completely believes in one-night stand. First drag, first booze, first date, first night out, first BF, first dump she loved every bit of his life which was out of box and nothing normal in it.

Like Rohan, Sonal also has a unique reason to celebrate. Dumping his Boy Friend calls for a party she hits the discotheques with his frnd , and at home it will be another late night Birthday party at his friends place. Her friends use to say that she is very lucky to have such excuses work every time and she would retort –“ Luck favors the daring and the daring will get the best F*** of life”.
A gal every guy would want as a GF but dare to fall in love or have her as wife.

In one of the disco's she ran into him or can say he ran into her-come on....anyways they both ran into each other and they never new that this would have a huge impact on their lives..........

Sonal: Hi!
Rohan:Heloooo!
Rohan:Single?
Sonal: Nope.
Rohan: where is he??
Sonal: Don't worry , he won't kick you for talking with me.
Rohan: ha ha , No i was just concerned that i may not kick him , if he doesn't allow me to talk with you .

She smiled and then both of them hit the dance floor.....

To be contd......

Choose Life

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Choose life.
Choose a job.
Choose a career.
Choose a family.
Choose a fucking big television,
Choose washing machines, cars, compact disc players, and electrical tin openers.
Choose good health, low cholesterol and dental insurance. Choose fixed- interest mortgage repayments.
Choose a starter home.
Choose your friends.
Choose leisure wear and matching luggage.
Choose a three piece suite on hire purchase in a range of fucking fabrics.
Choose DIY and wondering who you are on a Sunday morning.
Choose sitting on that couch watching mind-numbing, spirit- crushing game shows, stuffing fucking junk food into your mouth.
Choose rotting away at the end of it all, pishing you last in a miserable home, nothing more than an embarrassment to the selfish, fucked-up brats you have spawned to replace yourself.

Choose your future.

Choose life... But why would I want to do a thing like that?

I chose not to choose life: I chose something else. And the reasons? There are no reasons. Who need reasons when you've got a fucking IT JOB which pays you hell lot of money?

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From long I needed some kind of break (Vacation)- probably to settle few days on the jungles of Himalaya , to visualize the simmering promises and images that I see glittering in the sky , to solve the mysteriously written life by god and to some extent by me. Then I realized that with my untended intellect had to lean on the crutch of faith to negotiate the inscrutability of life.

Could not have defined it better than the above short poem by John in Trainspotting .



PS:courtesy Trainspotting - John Hodge . If one is not getting the feel of this poem then plz do watch the Movie at least initial 20 minutes.

Sporty weekend -hangover – Jaane Tu …ya jane na.

Loads happened last weekend, full drunk on Friday night, had debates with friends that ‘adjustment’ and ‘compromise’ are same. One of my roomie missed the chances of going onsite b’coz of some idiotic and ‘F’ reason. So alcohol was the only thing with anodyne properties in this abrupt situation which can soothe him, well chicken would also have done the trick but we choose Whiskey. Oh yes we tried to encourage him but even our empathy were not sufficient to calm him down – the drinks did it and after gulping down few pegs he snored heavily. “Rest for the disjunct soul”. I was the last one to entertain the guests, but finally I also gave up on the crap discussion and retired to my room, leaving others to carry on.

It would be unfair if I don’t mention the 'friends' that were missed that nite, Guys partying seems to be boring without u ppl.

Woke up on Saturday morning with the worst hangover ever I guess, well every time I had the same feeling that it is worse than the previous hangover. Promises ‘no to drinks’ then changing the promise again to ‘less drink’. Head ache, body pain and above all had to go for Jane Tu..ya jane na – scheduled at fun cinemas 10 km from my flat at 12.30 afternoon.

Huge expectation from the movie but the movie was a result of mix bag of the previous movies like ‘Chalte Chalte’ , ‘Tujhe Meri Kasam’ and to some extend ‘Socha na Tha’. Actually we thought that it would be a college flick, but it turned out to be friendship – romantic movie. Imran was good – perfect launch pad for him and he may not be as good as Aamir/Hrithik (in their 1st mv) but he is much better than lot of other kiddo (new comer) in the block. The music is nice, the comic part is kool, Rathna Pathak is incredible, there is some slow n boring patches in the middle part of the movie but still worth watching.

Came back from the Theatre, saw the pole position for the Sunday race (British Grand Prix), it was unusual. It was Heikki Kovalainen for the first time in his career taking the pole position. Watched another clash between the ‘Williams’ sisters in the Wimbeldon final the ‘big sis’ proving better for the ‘lil sis’, winning the title for consecutive time.

Slept well and early Saturday night, woke up early Sunday morning, finished the office work quickly knowing that the afternoon would be sporty hectic.
Asia cup final – India loosing miserably to Sri Lanka thanks to their new star Mendis. No more writing on this, it will unleash my wrath at BCCI.
F1 - Lewis Hamilton wins his home race, the final championship standing with 9 races left is amazingly well balanced.

1. Lewis Hamilton- British- McLaren-Mercedes -48

2. Felipe Massa - Brazilian- Ferrari - 48

3. Kimi Räikkönen - Finnish- Ferrari -48

4. Robert Kubica - Polish- BMW Sauber - 46

But….. The star of the Sunday Evening / Late night was Wimbledon Final, the clash of the titans, the clash of skill and determination, the clash of class and the youth, the clash of world no 1 and world no 2, the clash between the great Roger Federer and the improving Rafael Nadal. What a match it was , Roger hitting aces at crucial points, Nadal running like a rabbit on the baseline firing the ball in, Roger trying to hit winners but most of the time he found Nadal at the base line hitting the ball with his typical forehand spin shot or powering the ball with his two handed backhand. No match for Nadal in the first 2 sets, but Roger won’t go down so easily, took the 3^rd set to tie breaker and won it. Similar things happened in the follow up set but this time Nadal missed on many championship point and Roger again saved his run for the 6^th consecutive title to equal Bjorn Borg’s record for 6 straight Wimbledon titles.

Before the Match

For me I was supporting Nadal but wanted Federer to win, my friend sitting by myside question my such weirdo kind of desire but the bottom line was I don’t want any of them to loose.

All set for the 5^th and final set, deduce-advantage has now become the routine, with no player ready to allow the other to break. What more can you ask for a final, grueling display of skill, stamina and mental strength. Finally after four+ hrs (not including the 2 + hours of rain delay) epic battle ended , with Wimbeldon seeing a new holder of the cup- Rafael Nadal. He crumbled to the ground in jubilation and tears, did some trekking stuffs to meet his parents and family sitting in the stands.

Nadal won 6-4,6-4,6-7,6-7,9-7 becoming the only player after Bjorn Borg to win both Wimbledon and the French Open in the same year. This year is for Spain -another reason to celebrate after Torres sensational goal which helped them to win a major title in 44 years - Euro Cup '08.

After the Match - Perfect spirit displayed thru out the match and even after the match, both player complementing each other in their short speech.

Smoked the last drag – delighted by the fact that I was lucky to watch such a final and then off to bed.

The Rear Window

Mom: Why u bathing now?
I was silent, was getting late and didn’t want to start an argument with mom.

Me: Mom!! Get my jeans n that white round neck t-shirt out.
Mom: White t-shirt, no no.. it took me ½ hour to clean it, u ruin it every time u wear it.

Me: PLZ!!!
Mom: Ok! But u have to clean it, I’m not cleaning it.
Me: ok, no probs.

Came out , went straight to the mirror , to see how fair I was looking J. NA na .. not kool, applied “Fair n Lovely” , rotated my skull in all direction so that every part visible above my torso was covered. My friends were shouting in front of the house, “Hurry Up ”,We are getting late. Since half n hour I was telling them 5 minutes. But that won’t deter me to examine myself one more time. Hmmm… not bad, a little powder (Talcum) would make me perfect. All that time, mom was standing behind me and noticing everything. Finally she couldn’t resist.

Mom: What are you doing? u r not getting married today nor going to attend one. Then why so much of decoration n fuss!!
Me: Decoration!!!

No no.. clam down… no arguments .. already late. Will handle this “Decoration “adjective once back.

Mom: God!! What has happened to this Boy “Cricket khelne ke liye itna tyari kar raha hai and that too in colony, just in front of the house.”

Now here’s the background. A new neighbor has just moved in last week, just diagonal to my house, she was slim n fair (now u know why so much of prep for looking fair) with beautiful eyes n wicked smile, wicked- b’coz the first time our eyes met yesterday she gave me a wicked smile. Don’t know what was her relationship with the Uncle and Aunty ..who cares? May be Daughter may be not .

Yeah !! I was not in the best of shape that time… so what would one expect of a boy coming from 7 hours of torture at school and that too the day when he has GAME’S period in the last, shirt half in half out, one lace tied - other exploring the universe, tie pulled down to the belly, hair in a mess, bottle in one hand - rotating it at full speed.

This full preparation was to erase the impression she must have developed yesterday of me and to ensnare her. Got out of the house, with full swing of the hair, just like a hero making an entry in to the Movies for the 1^st time. Y this b’coz I had already seen her watching from the window. Thanks to my friends for giving me such publicity … they where shouting my name from half n hour. J

Frnd1: B****… kya kar raha tha be?

Taken a back…

Me: No slang today yaar.

They were shocked , b’coz first I didn’t greet them by my typical slang and above all king of slang is telling no to it..

Frnd2: What???? Are u okay.?
Me: Ya ya.. let’s start.

Was under-performing today ..no sixes no fours ..no wickets... We have rules while playing at colony. Although there were many but this one is important.

Rule: If a batsman hit the ball into someone’s garden, he is out and he has to get the ball also.

Now u can imagine why I was hitting no sixes n fours. This was the 4^th time I hit the ball in her garden, Previous 3 times I didn’t gather the courage to talk to her, this time no excuse b’coz it may be last as the Sun was setting down and I may not get another chance to bat. She was there in the window thru out our evening’s play, few time off, but most of the time glued to the seat, watching us play.

Me: Hi! U love cricket it seems?
She: Nope!! Not that much.
Me: Then also you watching us play!!
She: Hmmm..
Me: Pretending to find the ball, although I have already seen where it was laying.
She: It dropped there.
Me: Oh ok..here!!
She: no there.
Me: I was thinking that I should ask her to come out n help me. But…. That’s me ..
She: There it is just near your left leg.
Me: Oh here it is- Idiot. Picked up and started juggling it, So ..what’s u r name?
She: ****
Me: Ok which class ??
She: 9^th .
Me: B******.. wat ?? there it goes, every thing comes crumbling down.

She is older than me.. I was in 7^th std .. that too 2 years… That’s not fair. Now I need to call her “DIDI” henceforth; this is the way we were brought up in our society.

No No.. I won’t do that.
Me: oh great .. I’m also in 9^th.
Lie is the best and first step to approach a gal. I learned that by watching SRK movies J

Me: It’s getting dark, bye!!
She:bye!!

Well I started retracing my steps -disappointed. After few days she came to know that I was not in 9^th, when i reasoned it out y i lied it made her laugh.

We were friends now, mind you just friends. Then she went out of station for higher studies after her board Exams, few months in the starting we were in contact, then lost track.

Few days back MOM informed me that she got married few months back.

I know this is not the perfect ending but this is not a movie also .

(.......)

Again chain of sleepless night, don’t know what’s happening? Watching movies, checking mails, chatting,listening songs, reading, and surfing - these activities have become a regular night curriculum from few days. Well this is not the first time it’s happening but generally this phase gets over pretty soon but this time it’s getting prolonged.

Present state – restless nights, day dreaming, deep thoughts.
Trying to find out what mind, heart, soul, body wants???

Job- when there was no work, was longing for one.
Now when work is there, don’t feel like working.

Want my student life back.
Tension free
Enjoy every day.
Live life to the fullest.

“Mama take this job from me
I can't work anymore
It's getting dark too dark to see
Feels like I'm knockin' on heaven's door”

Probably i need a long vacation
go somewhere..enjoy , think, relax
take a break from routine.

Trying to run away from (……). Don’t know what?
Trying to run towards (……). Don’t know what?

Trying to find out the hidden depths,
Trying to ease the pain,
Trying to sleep

Can say I have become comfortably numb.

PS: This piece was written few days back, was planning to post the day when I would be out of this phase. It happened and now I can sleep.

Face 2 Face with God.

Long hours of staring at the laptop screen looking at the black and white code which resembles my colorless life, marching close towards developing asthenopia or already developed only God knows. Eyes almost closed, my head about to fall on the table when suddenly heard a voice…

God: Beta !
Me : Papa!

God: Main tumhara baap nai hun.. Open your eyes son. Main sab ka baap hun!!
Me: Amitabh???

God: No No! Bollywood ke duniya se bhar aao. I’m GOD!
Me: What the F…

God: No slang, you are in front of God.
Me: Oops, sorry. Which god? I mean Brahma, Vishnu, Mahesh or some other Foreigner God like Jesus.. o o oh.. I don’t remember any other foreign god’s name. Sorry Again.

God: Plzz.. Now you can go back to bollywood. “Bhagwan ek hai- we identify them with different names”.
Me: ok ok. So why are you here? Do you want me to construct some temples/mosques/churches ?

God: No No.
Me: Then anything important? One second I always have a short prayer after bath – in case you don’t know.

God: I know that. It’s just a regular visit. If you need any help. I try to cover most of the people whenever I get free time, today is your turn.
Me: Ok so you often visit people.

God: Only on free time.
Me: Oh ok. So you are also busy?? Gr8.

God: Yes. It’s same like a job of an IT professional – No Work /Very Busy.
Me: And what about Job satisfaction.

God: Please let’s not go in to this.
Me (To myself): He also has a job problem probably came down to look for one, but why me , he should have contacted HR peoples.

God: Hello!!
Me: Yes yes. So tell me what you want from me?

God: That’s the question I must be asking you.
Me: Ok. Happiness and good health for my family.

To Myself: What was that? I could have asked for million dollars ..y y millions.. Uncle Scruz Bank infact or some hot blonde gal as my Gf and some sundar, sushil and wealthy Wife. CEO of some big multi-national company, anything I could have asked for. Any ways chance gone.

God: Gud. I’m very happy that you care so much about your family.
To Myself: That was a mistake dude..sorry god!!.

God: Anything else you would like me to do.
Me: It struck me, Wait a sec. so you came here for something special and you know that’s missing in my life.

God: No no, it’s not like that!!
Me: Come on!! If you know what’s missing then why you want to hear it from my mouth. Ok so you want to embarrass me. So let do it your ways.

God: It’s not like that, I don’t want to hurt or embarrass you, it’s just my routine question, I ask it to everyone after my first question.
Me: Hmm. Actually I have lot’s of questions/things, the list is long can I mail you if you have a mailing address ?

God: No son. No service provider above.
Me: Ok. No probs. Rite now I need sleep, I’m very tired.
There it goes screwed my second chance also.

God: As you wish son. Good Night!!
Me: wait wait.. how can I get in touch with you? Or if I need your help.

God: No need. I’ll be in touch with you and I’m always there to help you- that’s service comes as default and free.
Me: Great. Bbye!!

No reply!! He has already gone.
Few minutes later I slept and snored heavily.

I was cursing myself when I got up in the morning that I screwed up an opportunity to be rich, famous, and renowned. Disappointment precludes me from getting up from the bed, so I thought of contemplating more on the purpose of his visit.
Long thoughts long discussion with me, brain cells fighting within my head for the righteous answer none succeeding though.

Finally concluded that the sole purpose of GOD visiting me was to make sure that I don’t loose faith in him or probably he may have seen that i am on the path of destroying it, although I was not converted to atheists or he may have thought I would have converted to one in near future. May be any of these reasons.

It was a message - do any thing you undertake with pure heart and commitment not too concerned about the outcome, he will always be there beside you taking care of all the issues and fighting along side you in overcoming all the hindrances coming your way.

Just go full throttle!! God hai na. !!

This post should be taken in the best of the spirit, in no ways I’m hurting anyone religious feelings/beliefs or mocking God. My earnest apologies in advance just in case.

Life has been fast and unpredictable in last few days.In the End -- Californication

Away from Blogging – b’coz of last few days in fact few months, courtesy Life. Some one said “Life is a perfect example of Life itself”. Unfolding few of the pages- don’t remember the dates can say I’m not “Subodh” or occurrence of events were so fast that dates could not find a slot in mind.

Tired from the clichéd and useless work which even a 10^th grade can do – People tag it as Job Satisfaction having true or false as value but for me it was null. So decided to appear for Interviews- that phase was fulsome, in some of the face to face discussion I thought of either hitting the person on the other side of the table or to be on the polite side just get up from the seat and walk out of the room. After having gulped down lot of these I was finally selected in one and they were ready to offer me. Was very exited , came back home prepared the resignation mail and was all set to send it. Friends they are God in these conditions they stopped me, Blessed advice “Jab tak offer hath me na aa jaye Resign nai karne ka”. I did so n c Till date I didn’t get any offers from them. They rejected me on salary issues even though I mentioned in the ECTC- Negotiable. Lucky Escape!!.

Not that lucky though .Was thrown out from the project or can say from my client – Company facing financial problems resulting to downsizing. So from the luxury of having 2 jobs in hand I was reduced to none -left in shocked state and in dismay. For the first time in my IT career I was on bench and was feeling the prick, many people were thrown out , so it was tough for the HR people to get all of them placed. The Scenario was looking horrible and the chances of it getting worse were brighter. Few days from then was scheduled for a client interview – was so nervous that I screwed it up. The result was put on hold and was entitled for another round. That another round was to happen anytime basically I would be informed about it few hours or a day before. Cancelled my Megadeth show b’coz of this.

Finally had an interview and was selected, then came the news that guys selected for the project would be traveling (ONSITE) and since I was selected late for that project so till then I didn’t have the client approval to travel. 50-50 chance. Happiness came along with toppings of sadness. My head was swimming as I returned back home from office—thinking so much happened in a day- Selected for a project- Work is good- Missed onsite – May have a chance of traveling in future. That Life’s - it’s ambages has taken me everywhere and left me nowhere.

Sipping the tea and adding fumes of cigarette to the pollution thinking “Ab kya goga”, got a call from unknown number, Credit Card / Personal loan / Home loan .. hmm.. U people are gone today “Maa behan se kaam me baat nai hoga aaj”--- as I picked up the call full prepared to have a go at them “U r Traveling, bring u r passport tmrw to office” – It was my HR. O o oh .. Man I was happy called up my Parents, my friends and every one close to me..Gosh!! they were happy too.

Gave the Passport Xerox the next day, started filling the Visa , got the Visa interview dates . It took me 2 days to arrange for the Visa documents and some of the documents required were missing also. Finally got everything ready and gather as many tips required for Visa interview from people who has been thru this. My office friends told me not to go in a particular counter as the Lady there is strict and rejects VISA also and mine was scheduled in that particular counter only. I was full nervous but anyways I got my stamping. J. Before i could realize anything dates were fixed ,tickets were booked . It all happened so fast that it's sometimes hard to believe. It’s business trip so duration is very small but it’s fine for me I’m happy.

Finally I’m traveling today nite to CALIFORNIA. But as u say “Jab tak Videsh nai paunch jao tab tak tum India me hee ho”….. So guys wait for the next update. Hopefully I’ll write the next post from US.

Now time to update the City/State in orkut and photos too.....

The Fear brings an iota of Relieve

Fear Fear… it’s good my friend.. that will set u r moderate life style afire. If you don’t fear anything u r nothing. Fear fuels u up to go beyond u r limits and perform miracles in your field which would never have been possible under normal circumstances. Fear of failing in exams pumps me up to give an extra hour form my precious sleep to study, but for my friends it was the fear of not getting distinction that keeps them awake all night . Fear nourishes u irrespective of the environment u dwell in. Fear in life should not be taken as a punishment or a force which pulls u down but it should be taken as a challenge to blossom.
The very reason I’m venting this into words is b’coz I’m living in a constant fear of ruining my career in present Work Place, the fear of losing whatever I know in coding , the logic, the creative part in me, the fear of killing the baby programmer in me which is destined to be a man in future. Now this Fear comes as a relieve to me, a blessing in disguise which prompts me too look for a new and a better WP. It won’t allow me to sit idle until it has done its part. People have all sort of fears , fear of getting hit while crossing a road makes u extra careful when doing so, fear of u r credit card bill crossing u r monthly salary keeps a check in u r love for shopping n partying. Fear of getting married.. that’s the big one “Baap of all Fears” which is presently haunting most of my friends who don’t want to get married and fear of not getting a proper bride which troubles some of my friends who wants to get married .With marriage is attached the fear of not getting a proper value in the market(Dowry) in case of arranged marriage and for lovers is the fear of getting married with family consent. The IT market as the pundits says is on slow down and will face lot’s of downsizing and less iteration hike as compared to its history- provoke each and every IT professional to give more than 100% in their work and stick to the same company as of for now.
Today is the V day— ‘Lovers Days’ – Ladka-Ladki will meet an enjoy the day with a terse of fear in everyone ,how long will this relationship last? will it go the final stage ‘Marriage’ and some will have the fear that by next V day will they be with the same partner . In both the cases fear acts as a catalyst to help them achieve what they desire for the next V day—new partner or marry the present V day partner. :). So peoples take this fear as source of inspiration to move forward rather than taking it as a obstacle in u r life. Happy Valentine’s Day to one and all.. have rocking n loving evening. And for peoples with no partner .. all d best to have one in near future and hope by next Valentine u find one. Keep Fearing.

Scribble

This piece may appear to readers as a manuscript written by Franz Kafka , but no my writing is not that lucrative and meaningful as his. I’m writing this b’coz it’s been long since I wrote something, reason may be many- Office work had carved out the creative part from me although the percentage was less, late night slogging , waking up late in the morning b’coz of this chilling weather , spending the rest of the time playing HITMAN after returning from office, depressed by the New Year celebration ,o oh –no celebration, planned few things for the eve but all crumbling down at last moment , no one to blame – it was fate which eluded GOA trip from us. SO THOUGHT OF SCRIBBLING LESS OF SENSE AND MORE OF NONSENSE WHICH PRESENTLY HAS A HOLD ON ME.

Planning to go home Feb end, but sill leave not applied , tickets not booked, delaying it, mapping it to the next day -every day, but that next day never comes- god knows why? I know the result of it, will book the tickets the day when the price will be very high.. that’s how I am.. and then crib over it. Need to change Work-Place but not able to study , so that’s also on a hold, wake up in the morning fondled whole night by the dreams, which gives me hope and after opening my eyes I brutally kill those hopes with my own monstrous hand. I wanted to buy a car, everything was planned but that’s also put on hold b’coz of some vicarious reasons.

Idle time, I’m all lost in contemplations – happy ones though, thinking of having this –that and off course if I had that also then it would make my life wonderful, planning of doing this for career perspective, doing that for health perspective, planning of doing something which would end my long season of sleeping wid books and waking up alone in the morning. Today is my Result day – although I know my stand before hand but still hope is there, that the people may do some mishap n I may get good result—Height of optimism. I’m nervous too, don’t know why.. probably after 2 long years , I would get judged on all India basis.

Enough of it—I guess otherwise this will turn into loads of crap :-), and I’m hungry too so going for lunch, can’t ask my friends to wait for a little more time.

Happy New Year to everyone. Hope this year everyone gets their dreams fulfilled even not all of it but at least some part .

GBU!!!!