Wednesday, 11 June 2008

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Again chain of sleepless night, don’t know what’s happening? Watching movies, checking mails, chatting,listening songs, reading, and surfing - these activities have become a regular night curriculum from few days. Well this is not the first time it’s happening but generally this phase gets over pretty soon but this time it’s getting prolonged.

Present state – restless nights, day dreaming, deep thoughts.
Trying to find out what mind, heart, soul, body wants???

Job- when there was no work, was longing for one.
Now when work is there, don’t feel like working.

Want my student life back.
Tension free
Enjoy every day.
Live life to the fullest.

Mama take this job from me
I can't work anymore

It's getting dark too dark to see
Feels like I'm knockin' on heaven's door

Probably i need a long vacation
go somewhere..enjoy , think, relax
take a break from routine.

Trying to run away from (……). Don’t know what?
Trying to run towards (……). Don’t know what?

Trying to find out the hidden depths,
Trying to ease the pain,
Trying to sleep

Can say I have become comfortably numb.




PS: This piece was written few days back, was planning to post the day when I would be out of this phase. It happened and now I can sleep.

9 comments:

man in painting said...

good writing.very confused state of mind trying to explain the dimensions....But the expressions had clarity..
liked it.
keep writing..
me too blog
do visit.

Rishabh Makrand said...

hmmm.. why so confused.. mere se poochna tha na.. what you want..
you want a "grihasth jivan"..
you want "shaanti" not "peace" the kaam wali bai... lols...
all you need a partner of opposite sex... to whom you can share your thoughts,fun etc etc ...(.....)
then you will see ki neend kaise aati hai...
haan aab woh kaise milegi.. iske liye kuch aur raten barbaad karo...
good luck...

Shailendra said...

@man in painting
Thanks dud for dropping in..

@Rishabh
It's not about 'OPP-SEX-OPP'..It's smthing bigger...Well one thing is sure.. y YOU need partner from u r comment "you can share your thoughts,fun etc etc ...(.....)"

Grow up :-)

Unknown said...

Welcome to the club. I am one of those affected with the same bug. Have written more than one posts on the same...

But sadly, there is no solution. I tend to get into the same feelings every now and then, and get pissed off. The recent remedy I tried was not getting bothered by it and let time take its own sweet course.

Shailendra said...

@ashes
Very true.. Now i'm taking it in a positive way...using the time in doing fruitful work..

DUD it's a phase.. kabhi aati hai kabhi nai aati hai (neend)

U r remedy is perfect.. :-)

Kunal Govind said...

mama there are 4 kinds of people said by my college teacher.
1. people who know that they know.
2. people who know that they dont know.
3.people who dont know that they know.
4.people who dont know that they dont know.

You have come to the 4th stage.

Shailendra said...

@Kunal

So is it gud or bad... n BTW..this phase appear-reappear in everyone's life.. either for small duration or for longer one..

Waise ignorance is bliss in this Stage :-)

Unknown said...

In short u r confused..
evry one is ...

P said...

Ahaa..glad ur outta it now...I definitely know how that feels!